Every day I open my eyes
I question if I’ll be dealing
Dealing with my demons
Or dealing with the haunted memories
Memories I forbid myself to speak of
With my eyes open I feel paralyzed
Paralyzed feeling every mistake I’ve made
Wishing every day I could stop finding the memories
Memories that make me question my sanity
My sanity that slowly and painfully goes away
Or is it more the memories are finding me
Finding me just to paralyze me
Paralyze me into these haunted memories
My sanity gone and feeling numb
Why does every day have to hate me
Hate me for existing
Hate me for breathing
Hate me for following
Following into the sacred memories
Hollow streets filled with misery
These streets are meant for me
Meant for me to follow its misery
Misery is just meant to be my only company
The only company that never leaves me
When will the light find me
Find me to save me
Save me from these haunted memories
Memories please let me be
If the memories want me paralyzed permanently
At least let it be peacefully
Peace is not meant for me
Peace is just but a forbidden dream
More forbidden than to speak of my haunted memories
Haunted memories might be my 2nd company
Or is it misery clouding my mind to ignore the haunted memories
Please just let me be
Still so paralyzed I feel not even a tear
Tears aren’t meant for me
It is not meant for me to show my pain
It is hidden so carefully
Carefully hidden but still hating me
Hate me for existing
Hate me for breathing
Hate me for following
Following into the sacred memories
Can there be one day where I’m set free
Set free from these haunted memories
Each judgement so hard to decide
So hard to decide from the misery
Misery please always be my company
If I’m not set free let misery be my permanent company
Clouding my judgment keeps me from the haunted memories
Oh please just let me be
Be away from these struggles
But these struggles are meant for me
Hollow streets filled with misery
These streets are meant for me
Meant for me to follow its misery
Misery is just meant to be my only company
The only company that never leaves me
Misery please save me
Save me from these haunted memories
Memories filled with pain and agony
Please just let me be
Each touch causes me to flinch
Flinch from haunted memories
I feel the air become so thick
So thick it’s hard to breathe
Breathing bring me my misery
Trust all lost and taken
Taken away from me
Why did all of this
All of this have to happen to me
Misery be my guide
Guide me to the end of my last street
Last street to stand on and breathe
Breathe in such pain and agony
Why did you have to find me
Find me in my hollow street
The hollow streets of misery
I am but paralyzed permanently
So lost in this pain
I look for my way
My way out of these haunted memories
Even if it ends me I will be set free
Free from these haunted memories
I lost my soul
Lost it once it was stolen
Stolen away from me
Misery please come save me
Please save me
Haunted memories let me be
My last breath
My last breathe leaves
Leaves oh so slowly
Now not paralyzed but too weak
Too weak as it is my time to leave
Pain leaves so slowly
Oh so slowly as my eyes begin to close
Close and never open
Never open again to see
Never to see the haunted memories
Thank you and goodbye misery
Misery you were always my company
My trusted company
You never left me
You always constantly stayed with me
Stayed with me even to say goodbye
Goodbye sweet misery
©angelsfall
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