Constant overthinking.
Plaques every aspect of my days and nights.
I am always in fear or flight.
Wondering when the show will drop.
Healing then hurting.
It never stops.
Some say I only have myself to blame for the way things turn out.
Some say I am weird and then turn and walk away.
Some don't acknowledge me and laugh behind my back.
Some betray me, then I welcome them back.
Overthinking all my moves,my words, right or wrong.
I overthink and overthink till all my energy is gone.
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