Only my pillow knows how much emotions I hide from this world
That raw pain the runs through my vein I must say it truly hurts
Pain of deception
Pain of this world
Both the physical the mental.
No longer words can comprehend all the unwanted emotion I feel
Not one tear drop came from being over joyed
It came from the burden of this worlds insanity
I kneel to pray but don't know where to even beginning
I stop and look wondering if a change is coming
By heart is buried alive from the deciet of family and friends
The ones you never thought would be the reason of your crumbling,
Trying to let go of pain that hugs my heart so bare
Ripping through my skin I can barly walk or even talk
I've given my all ended up with nothing
Yet, this I kept on going hoping for something
As I sit here I'll use my smile to cloak my pain
I'll keep smiling even tho I know in this world I have nothing much to gain
With tear in my eyes I'll look to the hills
Trusting the universe will one day transform my darkness into light
No one will ever understand without judging
No one will ever see how ur inner world is crumbling
I will stand tall fighting all my battle like the warrior I was born to be
Knowing that one day the joy and happiness will bloom and set me free
Sometimes things don't work out for as plan
Remember this, don't cry for me when I'm gone
As I'm happy I'll no longer live my life in pain an the uncertainty of this world
©audrey29
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