Resignation:
About to resign, working in bad conditions isn't idealistic for me, I need time for myself I need time to breath.
I still feel confused though, I still don't feel at ease, what if I make a mistake what if I hurt the ones that believe in me.
I still think I need to breath, take a step back and think about what's likely to transpire right after I leave.
Am I doing this for me? Or am I doing this to prove a point to someone? Either way something has to give.
I've been stranded here far to long, my head feels crippled, it feels programmed it's only one way and it's not my way.
I need some sort of freeway , away from the devil's place , away from yesterday's cries , away from all of this I'm leaving today!
I don't want to lie and claim my stay here was bad all the time, but good times were marginal that's a fact I can't deny.
That's one of the million reasons I got to fly, spread my wings and fly in the sky, where I will be free of mind.
Forgive my pride, I didn't want things to turnout like this, didn't think it would take this while, should've done this month's ago, the moment I revisited my old life.
The life I tried so hard to hide, a place of pain and misery, when you barely know if you going to see tomorrow or die today or tonight.
This is my goodbye, to those I'm leaving behind, I love you all that was never a lie, but once I'm gone that's the last scene you will hold closer to your hearts like life support machines to stay alive.
C