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My Soul Lamentations ⅱ

The Plague of
Malignant Self-Love
sweeps the land,
like nuclear winter…
Look Far beyond,
into an empty world
infected, In solitude,
the silence is
screaming alone..
        (Infected voice..)
I did nothing-
I saw nothing-
Only visions of
confrontations! 
Now I'm waiting
for the end,
with chaotic violence
in my eyes…
(Like a wartime conspiracy)
My dreams seem
to be obscured
by sun visions
of apocalyptic clash....
These holy wars
Are unleashing rage..
Sacred Mother Earth
Is without a face!
Consumed by the murderous!
{Devoid existence} 
Endless repression
by majority, our
masters without command..
A Strange new dimension disturbing my brain..
Contradictory truths..
Secrets in lies..
Meaningless movements..
We're Going Insane
without a cure....
Solitude is all I see
-Scarring my eyes,
My visions are now lost…
(Now I feel a
cavernous remorse,
Remorse for humankind)
Born with the remorse
To a cold barren place
With Constant Battle
between minds, so hungry
for words of prey.
One moment's mistake,
False steps in overcompensation..
Laws made by
the blind ruling-
(so-called)reign of light..
I didn't ask to be born
In this land of anger-
sadness & sorrow-
Everything so alone..
The image in my head
is of agony;
I see the
servants of rape,
In a land
so Audacious, Obsequious,
So Arrogant,
Clandestine & Vain.
10 thousand years
of misery, of torture-
in the name of hypocrisy
made paramount,
paranoia made law...
The twisted truth
rules supreme
in this empire
of sadistic lies,
so sacred is
the veil of deciet... 
Face the enemy,
 stare inside you!
Face the enemy!
Our maniac thoughts..
Religious interventions,
our problems remain
Because terror still raids
in the land with
senseles violence all around... 
Powerful nations
 repress their feelings,
 buried beneath their fear. 
(Making Us Cowards) 
Fear ties us up
And we don't grow
Being wrong and lost
No one admits the defeat
(Conscience is fair)
Are unfaithful words.
So much betrayal & greed,
past thoughts to win alone..
Grey shadows fill my head..
Stealing my last breath
I'm Scared of the future..
My Prophecies are of Chaos..
I see the world - old
I see the world - dead
There is a subtraction
within the human race,
persecuting our existence..
Death triumphs in
our wasteland.
Fear & Ignorance
has spawned a
war of the races... 
Mother Earth Sees
Our World
Without Intelligence... 
A place obsessed by
(The End Times) 
(Premonition) 
In the middle of war
not started by me
Deep Depressions of
nuclear Remains,
I never thought about
this happening to me.
Now I am sickened by
these proliferations
of Ignorance, these
orders that seek to destroy... 
Beneath the ashes lie
the remains of cities, 
laying in ruins.
  Bodies are packed
on minefields, 
in this neurotic game
of Life, Death,
Blood & Honor. 
Who has Won?
I have no land,
I'm from nowhere.
Ashes to ashes,
dust to dust..
Now I can feel my
life at the end;
(Bloody Premonitions)
of our final hour..
My image/soul
is Sad now
(of everything) 
Who has Won?
I Fear of becoming human
Envy the strongest feeling
Hatred still in our heart
My throat is now dry
A last cry tries to escape
The Guilt and frustration
No time to turn around
Looking behind
I'm not alone
Are they friends
or enemies?
Same hand
that builds–Destroys-
Obliterates
human
life!
Same hand
that relieves–Betrays us-
Subjective factor
with
intellectual rationalism,
betrays!
Same hand
that seeds–Burns-
like fire blasting
steel
cutting edges,
Like
visions of
me
burning in flames
Same peace
that exists–
Here
Lies!
{I can’t trust anymore} 
I have something to say:
where I live, heresy
& graft apartheid 
severe the heads of revolt, 
so I find it hard to
believe in another day.
Searching for an answer
To understand myself
Trying to save our world
While we kill the Universe
Green castles from the past
Bleed in sands of war
This place is like an
Endless empty maze of
Despair, distress and silence..
A poison vacuum of infinity
Life, lies, & deceit..
Mute souls end in silence..
Empty promises of hope
Are Buried deep
on infected ground..
I'm concealing a deep
need/hate to feel scarred, 
but beyond that,
to wish being at an end. 
(Sacrifice is pleasure)
When I see how
life ends in pain..
We conceived
the last mistake
Which belongs to our
Creation of insane rule..
Corrosion inside - we feel
Condemned future - we see
Emptiness calls - we hear
Final premonition - the truth
(Now I march before
a martyred world!... 
Will the Earth
Ever Be Born Again?)