let me get a little serious and spill what's on my weary mind today
I. full of questions I could ask one after the other the only thing is when you ask yourself the question you don't know the answers to you have nothing to move to the next step in the truth of that question to go on
as my life was some kind of hell like I said I was not that sad as a child I was a little happy well ok I was happy for the most part
I am more depressed a an adult then a child I feel like the promise of a life was a lie and all the the lessons that I was taught s about how I must be and all this self respect shit and brotherly love is all one big fat set up
now I have been instilled with this shit they call ethics and values and I can not uncondition my selve once you have been programed to act that way there is no going back even when you try to erase the shit they conditioned you for
that shit has a footprint that it leaves when it is embedded in you
so here I sit in a room by myself and lonely tapping on a stupid phone because that stupid phone is my only friend you see I no how pathic is she well I will tell you just how pathic I am
I am so pathic that my dad ass is sitting in this room because of the shit that my parent beat into my dam brain as I grew into the woman that has made herself become the alone
I am so pathic because my morals will not escape me no matter how many time I decide to put a drugs in my body
I am so pathetic because I refuse to get on my knees and kiss anyone's ass and for that matter I will not be no one dam whore
I am so pathetic because I will not follow the rest of you just because their is a crowd
I am pathic because when I think of someone that holds merit, the image I see is not you
I am so pathetic because I simply am not going to bend for them shitty ways of yours I will always stand my ground and I will have my word that will be good and I will never let my head drop in disgrace of your disapproval
as I know you sit with that shitty look of disgust on your face I can honestly tap I don't give a shit what you think I will just be pathetic in the mind of the shitty person who has no life of their own or better yet I will be whatever it is you want me to be in you fucked shitty mind you can feed off of my life for as long as you want I will not feel a damn thing you will be the one that will still be sitting in the same place in your shitty life in 4 or 5 years
honey don't make me laugh out loud don't make me call you out to our just a jealous bitch w he o can not stand the fact that your man is on hearing distance of a woman that has some class of a woman that is nothing like the bitch that you so eagerly are that you jump in line just to be so take you place and get to know it this is were your bitch ass is going to be for a while why you going to put don't hate a woman for telling a bitch just what the fuck she is and that a conniving bitch that is just a jealous hater because she is to lazy to try to do anything beside run her mouth and lay flat on her goddam back
you try and act like your so much better then me the fact of the matter is just for being the bitch you was meant to be. that makes you about three pegs lower than me why you so mad about the shit that I say who do you think you fucken are you can sit on you ass and spit all that shit about me but when I open my mouth and let my own spit roll you want to be one a little victim who all of a sudden grew some feelings for me to hurt I thought you shitty ass was above all the feeling shit
wait that must be the hypocrite in you that must be it's all good until the tables turn you know I'm right only difference is I will say the same dam shit to your fucken face were you my shitty dear will always be the bitch that has a fucked up opinion to spit as long as that other girl ain't on the same room and let's not forget you will always be that bitch that judges someone for the same shit you do you only think you do it better then me how wrong you are
until you grow a mind of your own and grow more then a mouth to spit you fucken shitty words and come to my face in my mind you will alwY be that ass kissing bitch that can't be trusted and your only good for one purpose that is to use like bird of you was to get a message through to someone without everybody knowing just act like you gossiping to a dumb bitch who just sits and runs her face about the ones shes kisses their ass as soon as they walk in the shitty room in which that bitch sits with her lazy ass
Angela Oaks
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