myself

I want to kill my sadness,
How to claim the happiness.
Sometimes i think to die,
But my life have lie.
My eyes was open wide,
I need to be guide.
Something is whispering,
Im really demanding.
What is wrong to me,
The depression was kill me.
Please i want to smile,
I dont want to say goodbye.
Thousand reason i see,
I memorize in my mind to believe.
How can be survive,
But in the end i have no life.
Here my poem what they say,
I want to be obey.
Myself was in the darkness,
To harm myself to be wildness.
©car