missing you.
there's a constant ache.
a cold shudder.
my heart being ripped at a stake.
I feel like dying.
I don't want to breathe.
it hurt to exhale.
cuz God took you away from me.
the tears I cry are heavy hollow cold with disbelief.
I bat my eyelash I try to get some sleep.
I close my eyes and All I see is you.
I'm dying baby.
I'm dying just to be with you.
and not among the living.
it hurts
yet it bleeds just to wash me clean.
wishing for you at night but all I can do is scream.
bloody murder.
wanting to be 60ft deep.
walking to the pearly gates just you and me.
but I can't stay.
shifting between life and death contemplating should I stay?
our hands part it's better this way.
a kiss and a tight hug.
I'm back to stay.
before the nail drives into the coffin
I breathe again.
I see your face.
laying in the cold muddy undead earth.
as I whisper it's better this way as the rain washing the pouring cold dirt from my face.
knowing I loved you till I bled yet heaven can wait.
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