No right way to start what needs to be said,
No explaining or repairing can ever bring back the daed
The two people we were back so long ago,
Has grown so far away now, just strangers instead,
Holding back my tongue, biting down on the pain,
Everytime I see you I have to refain, have restrain,
One of the hardest things ive ever had to do,
Slowly inside I watch myslef go insane,
Why can't I just get the point, that your gone,
Every chance, every opportunity has long withdrawn,
Why do I continue to surrender to my own denial,
And keep playing along with my hearts losing song,
Never thought it possible, that I could ever lose,
My best friend my perfect muse,
Should have seen it before the bottom of this bottle,
When you gave me your heart why did I refuse,
For all those basic thoughts left Unclosed
They mean nothing when everything left exposed,
Trying to find support in something that's died,
Reaching for the safety of something imposed
You released my heart so long ago,
Yea I knoe eventually I must ley my heart undergo,
Even though I still love you as much as ever before,
Nothing but disregard I do my best to show,
I can't ever say maybe, perhaps, someday,
Facts so clear nothing can hide this away,
So why I never speak these words to you
I'll write them as words I'll never be able to say.
©justin_ur
J