I take my life day by day, but I have to say it's never easy when I dont have yall here by my side,
So many feelings I have to hide, behind my pride, it grows stronger and stronger the more I shove it deep down inside. The hardest thing I'll ever have to do.
My life is supposed to have you, everything I do should be with you it's hard to admit, that the person I used to be was unfit, for you and the kids I couldn't commit. It was clear who I used to be was unbefit. So inadequate.
Every day I wake up to this empty room, reminds me of your absence, something I'll never be able to have acceptance with. It drives me to fight harder and harder. As I try to shrug off the sorrow, in Hope's that someday in a future tomorrow, I'll have the chance to have you all back.
©imaginate
J