I love others
But, I don't like me
In this "new life" that was offered
Now, I'm who I didn't want to be
Even when things were bad
Before I closed the door
I was happier back then
Cause my kids were provided for
Now it never matters
Whatever I do, I fail
It's never going to be enough
It's a living Hell
I'm grateful for any help
Along this dreary way
But, people that pray for my struggle
Keeps me stuck where I stay
God loves them too
So, he won't answer my prayers
I miss being close to Him
Now, I'm just surrounded by betrayers
So I shrivel and die
A little more each passing day
Too far gone to understand
Wondering when God will love me enough
To finally make it all.end
He says you can't hate your own life
If you are going to speak for Him
So, I put my hand over my own mouth
So I will not speak again
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