In the abyss of my own thoughts
I was hit and bruised by my past
I felt insecure and my mind fed with so much doubt
Uncertainty of my future made me anxious
Depression walked down the aisle with me
I gave birth to fear and all that was left of me
Was a lifeless lingering hollow full of sorrow
Like the pendulum, life tossed me
Here and there
I racked my brain for solutions
Trying hard as I did with differentiation
But all to no avail
And it looked like there was no escape
All I did was bandage up that scrape
Making sure it didn't turn to a scar
A scar that would last forever
Problems took quicker paces than I could count
It was all worse like I was under a curse
My life messy and and stinky like a dead skunk
My conscience bombarded with so much guilt
And mistakes I regret making turned to wounds that seem not to heal
You see, there were even times that I sat in the room with death for days
Playing that game where the first to blink loses
But I still won anyway
The true horrors of the world I saw,such hope crushing words I heard and those damning thoughts were unbearable
My heart shattered from the empty promises
Their words came straight like poisoned arrows
And were like shards of glass piercing my soul when they spoke
Unbearable as pain from labour
Some said I was common as dirt and others said I was insane
And no one seemed to care but to put me to shame
So thirsty I was for love that my throat was as dry as a bone
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