Fuck! There it is again,
just creeping in.
Sticking to my subconscious,
like adhesive.
An awful feeling overwhelms.
It grabs the helm.
Pushes me aside and drives.
Uncontrollable the rage building inside.
Push it farther down, hide.
No matter how I try,
my insides die.
Or at least how it feels. Im done.
Depression weighs a ton
My mind telling me I can't heal,
Give up, give in, I won't win.
Yet I try to make it subside.
No matter how I try, it thrives, I die.
Gaining everyday, self deletion thoughts,
They haunt me. This is what I wrought.
A life that weighs me down
So I stare at the ground.
Found with no emotion, no care.
Thick clouds around push all away.
Alone, the world just looks numb and grey.
©gingy
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