Yesterday was tough and rough
I didn't put anything in my mouth
And when night came
I slept on an empty stomach
I kept on tossing and turning
Asking when my alarm would go off
A lot of things ran through my mind
Questions I couldn't answer
Depression hit me so hard
Well the demons under my bed came out as usual to torment me
They pushed me to the blades
Tortured me so much
But again I said no
I fought
I struggled
But I didn't cut
I cried
If my pillow could talk
I'm sure it would have narrated the story better
I was alone
I was scared
Ulcers wouldn't stop
My stomach was hurting so bad
It felt like I had eaten thorns
Or maybe needles
Water wasn't helping
For it was the only thing available
How I wished I'd get even a plate of noodles just to reduce the hunger I felt
I got dizzy spells
It felt like my head was spinning
Everything around me was in motion
Round and round they all went
I felt like it was the end of me
I felt like I was going to collapse
But I managed through the night
When morning finally came
On my knees I said a prayer
Thanking God for the night
Thanking God for my life
And His endless love
You see it might have been worse
But I know my tomorrow is brighter
I know He who allowed this to happen to me has better plans for me
I might be crying now buy I know tomorrow I'll laugh
I might be sad now but tomorrow I'll be happy
I trust in Him
I quickly took a shower and dressed for work
I only had twenty shillings that took me half way And then I had to walk to work
I was so tired
With tears in my eyes
Ulcers harrasing me
No strength at all
I just had to manage
It's life after all
Most of us have it hard
But never give up
Never loose hope
There's always light at the end of the tunnel
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain
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