Nobody checking in again just wanted to drop a couple bitching lines to all my poem friends who in return will read your taps to...
I hear a lady that say I will not now I heard her alot of you are reading these taps lady let me ask what are you still doing here then.. if you have no intentions of helping why are you still sitting there spectating, if you have no clear intentions I ask that you please remove yourself from a story that is not yours if you don't want a role to play..
I'm so sick of the one that insert their selves in your book of your life the ones that become a part of your story and have nothing but shitty intentions...
is there not one single person that become a part of your story so they can help you to evolve to next chapter why is it always the one that try to knock you back a couple pages ..
I can hear a woman you has nothing but encouragement and Amanda that has concern who shows genius care for my well being
then there is always this woman who tries her best to discredit me who tries her best to make them believe that I could not possibly be the person I pretray myself to be how wrong this lady is about me...
I don't pretray myself to be nothing more or nothing less then what and who I am I don't play silly games and I am a grown woman yes I might hide in my mind and yes you might even hear me talk to myself but you never see me in the company of another who do you think I should talk to
yes you see me put shit in my arm but you never see me change that's because that shit you see is just a concussion that I have made for myself to keepe straight there is no other way for me to remain sober I'm this house that use to be my home
you throw all these words that ring so clearly iny ear ( no she is not) no I will not), I have news for you lady I am everything you are trying to convince your friends I'm not I have such great pride that something you could never take from me or even discredit...
I have worked my ass off trying to get to this point I'm sure you have no clue how hard it is for a person who live with the disease of addiction being herself off of everything and remain clean and sober in a place we're drugs are easily accessible were all I would have to do is snap my finger and I could have that drug sitting right in my lap..
so while you sit on your ass and holler no she is not. you know absolutely nothing about a addiction and a person that has won that fight right in front of your eyes and you are just to dumb to see it or. just to stupid to admit that I did it why can't you just be a lady to and give me a little credit I'm not asking you for anything I didn't earn don't deserve why have you found it so hard to like a person like is it because you see the fighter in me
I begging you don't be like the rest of the ratty bitches you sound like a woman who hold herself with a prideful stare so stand for what you say you believe and see me as a person who is just trying to keep up with a story that has been predetermined...
this has been nobody dropping these lines for this lady to read just so she will know that I know she is there just so she will no I am not fake I just as real as she will ever be with a story and a role that she must play, following a line, just like she is doing I know your in my book lady just like I am in yours I just choose not to cut you down at your every move or whimper...
Angela Oaks
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