I've been trying
To ignore this pain
That's swirling through my brain
Seeping into my heart
It's back
And it's not welcome
But it's stronger
Than me
Wanting to smother
My light
Bring me back to the darkness
The blue that
swirls through me
hurts
And
I want to cry
I will
Tell everyone
I'm ok
Force a smile
to support the lie
But I want to shut my door
Curl up in a fetal position
on the floor
Cover my face with a pillow and just cry
It has won
I can't hold back the rising tides in my mind
I'm going to
Let the depression
Come on
I'll let it just
Sweep the cobwebs
inside my head
I will fall asleep
At the foot of my bed
I will dream of angels
God, Jesus, all in red
Dream of yesterday's
words I wished I said
I will remember
Friends and loved ones
That are now dead
Tomorrow will be
A better day for me
©kazmac
K