Love is a non existent to me
The one I love has been scorn to me from love as much as I have.
I wish I could be happy but the pretend reality I love in has me living like a plastic character. No heart no feelings. I've lost physical feeling through my body. Pardon me if I wrap myself in moments of pleasures. It`s easier to not feel and not react based on emotion. Thanks to all that has hurt me I did nothing but love. All I can do now is forgive all no need to apologize. I'm good I just need to learn how to open that heart up.
Maybe I can trust again and feel.
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