not afriad of missing you. i kinda feel like today's the day I might just be…

not afriad of missing you.

i kinda feel like today's the day I might just be over him,

I'm realizing things I haven't before,

but I still miss you,

and that doesn't mean I still love you

I'm doing great,

so much better,

98 days clean,

and 3 days clean for the other one,

but its progress.

progress I didn't have with you,

because when I was with you

i was hurting,

and hiding it,

but now,

I'm still hurting,

I'm not hiding it anymore,

and I'm not afraid.

I'm not afraid of you,

I'm not afraid of missing you,

and I don't want you back.

Because there were good texts,

and then there were the other ones.

you made me want to start a habit I cannot undo.

and I did it, and I can't undo it.

you pressured me so much about something I never wanted to tell you in the first place.

and I'm glad I never did.

because it gets worse, before it gets better.

but at least theres one thing I can say,

I'm not afraid anymore.

I'm not afriad of you,

and most importantly,