It doesn't come easy
Making me love the way you've done,
I may already know that your gone,
But I will always feel you were the one,
The feeling of you gone,
I've felt now for more then what's good for me,
It's kept me looking from the outside,
And I don't like what I see,
You so far away,
That my screams seem to never be heard,
Makes me reply them in my head,
Reciting every word,
I've been dead to you,
If not dead all along,
I thought I found my forever in your eyes,
But you tell me that I'm wrong,
That it could never work,
Because the way I make you feel,
And lately those words seem to be the only,
Emotion I feel from you that seems real,
Making me question,
The source of my drive,
Why does your love mean more to me,
Then my reasons to be alive,
It will never go away,
I'll have to live with this to the end,
And if that end happens to be sooner,
Then you will no longer have to pretend.
That you love me,
That you don't want me to just leave,
That there will be no missing me,
So there will be nothing to grieve.
The universe is on your side,
And apparently so is my mental mind,
I'm realizing that the only thing I live for,
Will always be something I'll never be able to find.
©justin_ur
J