I feel the warmth of the morning sun
With pjs still on and messy hair in a bun.
Woke up at 4 to roll my breakfast joint,
Then drove up the road to the highest point.
With the Moon on one side in al her Beauty and Shine
She's by far, the most favorite creation of mine.
And the Sun waking up behind the hill in the distance
Bigger and brighter with blazing fury persistence.
The view is changing as each second goes by,
and I suddenly feel very vulnerable to cry.
As I see the artwork created by God Himself,
I question so many problems I see in myself.
The meaning of life is a journey to the unknown.
I reckon it leads to Heaven with God sitting in His throne.
But the way I see it, I struggle to understand
Was I not the mistake made by His right hand?
The view is so perfect, yet I am just me
Is there something that I am suppose to see?
I'm lost inside, can't find my purpose in life;
Will I someday even be a good mother and wife?
Like the Moon and the Sun in the sky together,
Rising everyday since the start, 'till forever.
Always different and unique in its own crazy way
But always a beautiful start of each new day.
But a beginning of something new is not always so bad,
Cause I'm smiling today and I'm not feeling sad.
It's been so long since I've felt happyniss and joy -
Like a little kid playing with his very first favorite toy.
And I realise something that I doubted before..
I was ment for something better; something more.
God made me imperfect for a reason I don't know
Mistakes learned today, a lesson known tomorrow.
Maybe there's a message that can help me today
Like I don't have to suffer; I don't have to stay.
I'm full of flaws and not nearly to being perfect
So working on myself to become better, will be my secret.
But the world is now quiet and there's no sirens, nor crime.
So I'm just relaxing and enjoying this prefect moment in time.
©c.marais
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