I break a little everyday.
A chip here and a crack there
Sometimes it's them, sometimes it's you.
I feel reduced and will soon be nothing.
"Nothing" seems to be the issue.
"Nothing" is my response.
I wish it was nothing.
And you make me feel I am nothing.
I wish I were happy. I wish they were happier still.
I wish I had never known. I wish I had never known Them people
You gave me a feeling, feeling of longing. Longing for love
And you taught me to love myself, more than anyone else.
And you taught me well. For I feel betrayed, beyond concern,
As your actions stand exemplified.
I wonder what to make of it today.
Wonder perhaps you played me, roughed me up, shone the edges.
Shaped clean blunt edges and then you Carved your path in.
All those words of support have meaning now,
Sharpeners for your knife while you aimed my back.
I feel like a puppet, wear a single expression. Acceptance.
I envy them more for they don't feel the pain.
The pain of trying to make sense of it all.
The pain of realizing there isn't any sense.
©sunny09
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