I am lost, I am hurt, I don't understand what happened... We would do so well make love all night, then the next day it was another fight. But why? It just doesn't seem right...
all I wanted for you was to be happy you know that I had your back even when times got crappy. but I guess I tried too hard because you felt suffocated by my presence, my wanting.
wanting you, your touch, your laugh, your voice, just wanting you near. All I wanted was for you to be happy... I never meant to hurt you or make you feel trapped. You stayed so guarded and left me broken hearted. I am sorry you feel the way you do and all the shit that you've been through. I wish you could see deep inside of me. All I had was sincere love for you and yearned for you. for you to open up, let me in, and show me you love me too. You didn't and wouldn't do any of this. You instead would ignore me and leave me the question, to wonder, to hurt, because all I wanted was your affection, attention, honesty, and trust. But you could not even be upfront and truthful with me about why. after amazing nights where you would go, leave me lost, what you were doing that would make days go by without even hearing a word from you. are you all right, I don't know, why do I care? Because that is what I am supposed to do. If you love someone and they suddenly disappear without a word being said, you worry and wonder and just wait hopefully, every minute hoping that they would say something and clear your head. Psy...
you can't look at me, you can't talk to me, you make me feel unwanted, used, or like I'm an inconvenience. Someone you truly don't want around.
I see her alone... I have nobody, and you never really gave us a chance. Sometimes I feel manipulated by you, that you had or have some other motivations for playing with my head and stringing me along.
idk....
I just know how I truly feel for you. And that is a love that will never fade. I truly only want the best for you. And that is all I ever wanted.
I know hurtful things have been said. They have been said out of anger from the both of us...
I know at least on my part I truly didn't mean it and would take back every word if I could.
love me, hate me, this seems to be the end... I guess walk your path and I will mine. There's nothing more I can do... You've made up your mind...
Be at ease babe and carry on strong. All my love for you.
-The Lost One
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