that's the last thing that was said
oh...
one word
waiting
holding this cold worthless phone in my hand
hoping
that he'd say more
something
anything
my heart begins to squeeze
as I begin to come to the realization
who am I even talking to
do I really truly know this person anymore
oh...
where is the pain
the love that once crackled between us from just one look
where is the heartache that squeezes mine every time I think of that oh...
how can you say your there
how can you say you care
tears soak my face
that one simple oh caught ahold of everything
nothing
not even an I'm sorry
not even an I wish you well
oh...
tears slowly trickle
untill they soak my shirt
what am I even doing
why do I try
these words that fill my heart to the breaking point
and all you have is oh...
that oh...
although so small and worthless
wraps multiple times around my heart
cutting off the circulation
the air
oh...
the tears burn my eyes
burn my skin
burn my heart
the oh cutting a perfect hole in my heart
it would have been more bearable if you slashed the whole yourself
leaving it more jagged
having more feeling in the slashing than in that little text
I come to the realization that maybe you really never cared
all of these sacrifices
each price of kindness
and need love when you needed it most
and all you give is this heartless oh...
oh...
I've cut my heart to bits
cut each piece to perfectly fit the palm of your hand
pooring my heart out
even smiled at her to let you know I'm fine
but you never really cared
my heart drips in my palms
as you give it back
it drips as I sink back to my knees
it drips and drips and drips
untill soon it may shrivel like a raisin
the tears come uncontrollablely
dripping into my open sobbing mouth
choking me untill I can't breathe in my own sorrow
untill I slowly drown in this pain
choking
sobbing
drowning
I squeeze this phone in my hand
debating on whether or not to ask
why...
why do you no longer care
because if you do I can't tell
for this oh rips me to shreds
this oh...
oh...
Naomi~wingedfeature
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