Thinking about it is hurting me;
I wish I didn't have a thinking mind,
Why is it so hard for me?
I wish I could turn back time.
As my hair turned grey,
I have never been happy.
I couldn't paint it;
I couldn't remember any.
My hair did not only turn grey,
My memories were not certain,
Or I became uncertain,
How come you aged, my brain?
Because of you, I am feeling this way.
It's not fair,
I could allow myself to get old,
But, I didn't allow you to.
You were like my everything,
Don't hurt me like this.
You didn't leave me with nothing,
You only left a yawning abyss.
I still wanted to remember how I woke up early in the morning to go to school;
How I confessed my feelings to my crush;
How I used to love to play with my friends;
How I had my first breakup.
I wish I could remember these things;
My numbered days are almost used up.
Please let me remember everything
Before I take an endless nap.
Written by: Silver Seagull
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