one more chance.
today in particular
is a harder day for me.
i don't know why.
i don't know how.
but I miss you and I want you back now.
every tear that falls from my eyes,
has a part of you that comes with it
a part of you that is still tucked inside my heart.
i scroll through our texts
from when we were okay
but people don't know the full story.
I'm the bad guy.
i didn't know how much I would miss you until you were already gone.
i destroyed it.
i destroyed everything.
i destroyed our relationship.
i destroyed you.
and most importantly,
i destroyed myself trying to get back to you.
and there will always be a part missing in my heart
from you.
because I destroyed myself.
over, and over.
every single night.
crying.
trying to get back to you.
until I was so tired,
i just decided,
maybe there is a point.
so I healed myself.
i became everything I've ever wanted to be
i changed my hair.
i changed my face.
i changed my body,
and my style.
but it's not good enough for you.
and it will never be good enough for you.
because you have a girlfriend.
and I just have me.
so I hope when you think of me
you don't think of the hurt and desperate little girl.
i hope you think about the girl
who would change everything about herself.
just to have one more chance with you.
M