Today was the day I got your call
It was my day off
As soon as saw your name on my ringer
My heart kicked up gears and my eyes shot tears
Joy and question clashes into one
As you spoke happy I was, then I realized was only work
It saddened me to know I only reason you reached out was this
The only thing on your mind was work
Disappointed in myself for letting the situation lead me down a mole hill
But proud of myself I am for taking care of things right.
There is a time in place for everything.
At your own discretion is the best
I did exactly that and nothing bad took place
God is always on my side and will continue to be everyday.
If you knew my thoughts, my dreams, you will understand my misery.
I love til I am drained
I stay and wait til your remotely close to my in circle of mind, but just as I do you reverse time
Retracting the moments we spend making my head turn into a complete mess.
What is this back and forth
What is this between us that I know you feel too
What are we doing
When will you finally let me in,
When will you give me a chance
Commitment is not your strong suit, but I don't need your hand in marriage just yet
I want to get to know you well and see if we can even come close to think of marriage after time
How can I tell when you are not being clear
How can I tell if you really want me near
How can I tell you actually care
Tell me damn straight out
Share with me and I with you
Share our fears and keep them as ours
Heart to head head to heart
Kicking me around like some call art
Trophy I am, not dirt on the ground
Self respect I have even when I want you to lay me down.
Of course you do not know what I think
But I know you know something and have not yet told me
When will you unrole your affection I am in dier need of your collection
©savy
S