When you look up to the sky at night, what do you see?
Do you see ellagince?
Do you see beauty?
Do you see pain?
Now, what do you see when you look into my eyes?
Do you see the tears that haven't been cried yet because I just want to hide the feeling?
Do you see the trauma I received as a child?
Do you see my pain?
I'm asking you this for a reason.
That's because you are my pain.
I heard a song once that reminded me so much of me that I couldn't handle it.
The last of the lyrics were
"I remember I was walking the streets of my home town
I was alone this time,
unlike that other time.
and it's because
I wanted to die alone."
I feel the pain, the hurt, and the blood.
I just want that hole in my heart to be fixed.
But only you.
Only you can fix that.
©4.20_a.m.
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