Patiently waiting for the connection to begin
Completing our daily activities and out of nowhere he starts talking
Respectively holding all my enotions under control
I actively listened thinking if something had went wrong
He opened up about his past relationships and had no problem with going in depth
We sat in the parking lot with the car running still having this strange connect
I've always wanted this from him...open honest and comfortable
As I started to calm my overthinking his phone rung
He didnt attend to it nor did he pick up
I assumed he was being respectful or just didnt want to be bothered
...
I woke up this morning concerned and anxious
I asked him who called and he told me it never rung
I prayed that we would be okay
Maybe I spoke too soon
...
A disagreement is overdue
Father what do I do?
Am I overreacting or being played for a fool
Im glad he see the ability to open up
But was it to throw me off?
or
Was it to cover something
up?
What was the secret or cause?
Am I just not the chosen one?
Am I not good enough?
...
I need something in my cup
Will there always be consequences to him opening up?
©tynethayes
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