when I met you I was nothing but a memory.
a whisper in the night.
lonely, depressed I was a hot mess dying from a heartbreak.
then I met you.
and my heart felt light again.
we talked for hours.
I hung on your every word.
you made me laugh.
you made me smile.
you were like a dream yet I thought you were made up of my dreams.
all my wants and needs fused into a angel that had my heart singing.
your blonde long hair.
your blue eyes.
your soft porcelain skin.
your velvety smooth voice.
it was all poetry to me.
as I took you as a muse.
and later as a girlfriend.
my family divided about you.
but love ascend more than blood.
I would die for you.
if it meant losing you.
my friends look at me strange as I was more happy less grouchy they didn't understand you were changing me from inside out in a good way.
some loved the fact that I had someone who wanted to love me no matter the distance.
but that was just it.
it was distance that left me from making you completely mine.
but I didn't care you were already mine.
even in my dreams I had you.
falling under your spell.
as I couldn't believe I was the only one you wanted.
cuz no one ever wants me.
I was kinda convinced I was ugly unlovable weird deformed by my lack of personality.
but you saw past that.
you Loved me.
though I couldn't love myself.
everything I hated about myself didn't matter.
you wanted All of me.
you still want All of me.
yet all my fantasies all my dreams they always linger to you.
you were always my kryptonite.
yet every time you tell me you love me I melt.
I feel such warmth.
such passionate heat.
when you look at me I just fall in and out, in and out back in love with you.
knowing I will never leave.
I don't want to.
I just want you.
the girl from Gonzales Louisiana who makes me delirious just with the way you say my name.
yet on this anniversary words cannot describe you.
endless poetry can't do you justice.
only I love you is the phrase that stays on my lips every day.
yet you are mine.
I am yours.
until my heart stops beating and still, I'll still love you.
©darkmocha
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