I fell for you
from the very first day
Everyone said Hi
but you had nothing to say
you waved at me
and i couldnt help but smile
you had that quiet and reserved
to good to say hi style
you were so quiet
something you werent known to do
when it was pointed out i had to wonder
just this new girl did that to you?
first thing i said was a mean jab
but instead it made you laugh and talk
and then you came back at me
making fun of my muppet walk
from there on my interest grew
i wanted to know who you are
little did i know then
that ud make my heart pound so hard
it started off with teasing
we became fast friends
we both had a mouth and attitude
and all my problems ud help me mend
then the talking turned to flirting
but damn did we know how to tease
we whispered the naughtiest of things
and made each other so hot with ease
when we were around each other we were like pots
on a low flame beginning to heat
then one night we took that step
no correction we took that leap
we played our usual game
and u issued a punishment i needed to follow
but it ended up with me on my knees
impressing you with how i swallow
from that night on the heat doubled
the temptation to play so high
and so many times we ended up together
with you caressjng between my thighs
we made excuses and made time
to be alone and play
we protected our secret
and always made plans of how wed sneak away
and that was when itd happen
when we were off in our own little world
when you were mine and i was yours
and youd make me feel like your girl
you touched me and im melt
already so wet from anticipation
gripping the seat trembling
on my knees waiting for you
eager for your participation
you knew exactly where to touch
you knew exactly how to make me moan
you knew exactly how to talk to me
that sexy deep dreamy tone
you took your time with me
never letting me move too much
then the pressure would begin to build
making me crave so much more then a touch
you could feel it too couldnt you
me moaning and begging you for more
thats when youd pull me close to you
pushing your fingers deeper into my core
one arm wrapped around me tight
holding me against you as i came
shaking and trembling and dripping
as continously i said your name
i wanted you inside me
i wanted so bad to make you cum
but i was too afraid if i made that move
you would panic and choose to run
we kept the line drawn
we never let it get that far
you had that 1 rule u couldnt break
and i respected the man you are
so i laid you back and took you in my mouth
and ran my lips from base to tip
swiring my tongue up and down
skimming ur head with my lips
then i looked up at you so you could see
that in my eyes there burned a fire
that no one else in the world
could ever have the focus of this desire
our gazes locked and in yours
i saw that the heat matched mine
and in that moment i knew it wasnt possible
for us to keep the rule this time
you reached for me and flipped me over
on my knees i went
they i felt you slip inside me
and out the window all of our fears went
in that moment is was only us
and only how we felt
we didnt care about the world outside
or even what cards we had been delt
you whispered my name and moved faster
deeper and i felt such bliss
nothing could change the way i felt in this moment
nothing could have felt more perfect than this
That was the night we realized
just how dangerous for each other we could be
our love was forbidden, impossible
i wanted you so band and you wanted me
but we had to face reality
we had to come back down
from the clouds we were dreaming on
and place our feet on the ground
we were from 2 different worlds
neither one could fit in the other
the consequences were too great
for us to remain lovers
he had his responsibilities
to his family, his way of life
his path and future chosen for him
and at home, his one day future wife
i had my family,
my kids at home and their dad
and i owed it to him to make it work
i never wanted to make them sad
weve tried to keep our distance
to always remain far apart
because seeing each other, no matter the distance
always kicks starts our hearts
weve tried in the past being only friends
keeping our feelings locked under a key
but time after time it never works
just friends is something we dont know how to be
we text here and there
always trying to make time
but in trying to stay in each others lives
i feel the responsibility is mine
he works so very hard
trying to earn all that he can
and expecting him to put me first
is a thought that i can stand
i dont even want to be at the top of his
but id love to make top five
because all the memories of us?
im my head and heart they thrive
but theres also a thought in there
an emotion im fighting not to feel
a thought that i know is true
one that i wish wasnt real
im bad for him, hes bad for me
when were together we risk it all
we risk everything
and we just cant afford to fall
and falling for each other would be so easy
our restraint is what keeps it far
but i caught myself wishing for you
last night on the first brightest star
but realizing what i know to be true
i sadly rescind my request
i foolishly made it as though it were a prize
a reward after a harrowing quest
but ur heart is spoken for
you have a duty you need to fulfill
as do i, in my little world
regardless of how we may feel
so ive decided my minds made up
i going to let you go now
im going to set free my hopes and dreams of you
even if im not sure how
you have a life to live
and i dont want to complicate it more
you were everything i wantes
and nothing i was prepared for
you made me feel so beautiful
you made me feel like a queen
and gave my heart a new rhythm
one that could only be found in dreams
and ill carry this beat forever
using it to set the pace for my life
you made it beat so fast qnd strong
that im sure i can get thru any pain and strife
you made me realize how strong i am
made me want to be better
you made me want to persevere
and dance in the gloomiest weather
everything happens for a reason
at least thats what they say
and whag we had ill never forget
not even on my dying day
©wild_star
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