Pain, possibilities and insecurities nearby,
pain, the word that has come back to run my life,
possibilities, the possibilities that once kept me alive gone,
and, I only stay alive so no one has to find me dead,
insecurities, I ruined two friendships and my relationship with my sister because of my insecurities,
nearby, death feels so nearby all the time,
pain, it haunts me day by day like the ghosts around me,
I wish I had the guts to end it but my own dad would call me a coward,
I mean I already know I am,
I just hope mother nature takes me soon
©mambie
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