I feels the pain
It's flows in my veins
There's no escape
Till death do us part
It's embedded in my heart
I try so hard
To disregard it
So I won't feel it
But this is real
Everyday, same time
That's how it was designed
To crush these dreams of mine
And make me feel like dying
Everyday same time
I try to bargain
Tried everything to reduce the pain
But I always fail
Everyday same time
I contemplate
If I can make this work
But I end up on the ground curled up
And crying my heart out
After opening up about it
They called me insane
Used fancy words like depression
Gave me more medication
But I still felt the same
Oh the misery, the pain
Changed my life in the blink of an eye
Every day I ask God why?
And I get no reply
And everyone else asks me why I,
Make it a big deal..
The pain will kill me
Before She does it myself
And there's no help
That can make it heal
I'm no AlenTheRealist
But I still an being realistic
This pain will never cease to exist
So bit my bit, it tears my flesh
My heart, mind and soul
Bit by bit, the pain is gaining control
All efforts to put it out, in vain
Oh the misery, the pain
©njavwa.s.p
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