They took you,
When I found you lying on the bed,
Your body was so cold, so pale.
One would swear that you where
dying and guess what you were
already dead.
I couldn't believe it but hey
I guess that was it, kept tossing and turning at night, and tried talking about it but all I could get were words that couldn't make me better, instead, they made me worse than the person I was, those words were sharp spokes that pierce the heart. Nobody cared about me and nobody will.
God took you from me to make me the strongest person, instead, I'm now the weakest, I wish heaven had visiting hours,
I need you every day beside me, cause love is what left when you left me. Trying to accept is what I'm doing but instead, I'm losing it. All I'm left with are your numbers and your pictures, sad enough I don't have the pictures we took together... I cried when you passed away, and I still cry even today although I loved you dearly, I couldn't make you stay, the golden heart stopped beating while holding your hand, and your hard-working hands went to rest. Things are really hard at home and in my life, I'm trying to show love but it seems like everything I touch breaks, I need your help more than anything cause you everything, you can tell me anything I promise to do it. I'm pretty sure that you know what I'm going through is real, I try to give love but get rejected, is it me? am I the problem? am I selfish? am I self-centered? don't I deserve to be loved? Because that's what u was told, they come and go while I'm trying to handle it, and it's hard to let go when you hold on to regress, they promised to stay with me and I can cry when I need a shoulder but when I start being open they go, at the times I even regret having relations with anyone cause even friends are fake, I wanna if it's okay for me to not to talk to anyone because the original me is being an introvert but trying to socialize makes me depressed while trying to distress. Whoever killed you will rip what they sow, I ain't gonna rest until they rest. God will have to forgive me on this one but justice must be served.
I won't forget the day you left because they took you.
©silindile
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