used to believe there was hope used to have faith in life and in mankind used never get to far down but that and many things have changed I think I'm a little crazy or deranged, all those years of marriage and time for it all to end and leave this man Alone growing old with long lonely nights cold, nobody there for me to hold, she's gone for good this time as I lay awake lost in the past, early dawns grey light soaks my bed I'm going almost crazy gotta get it all out of my Fucking head or one maybe both of us may wind up dead as words of love a promises of forever from her ringing in my head, nothing left to lose I started to drink heavy and use hoping to kill or hide from going Insane but nothing seems enough to touch this sorta pain now it starts to rain and comes down hard beating on the roof and windows as morning sets in I'm already fucked up 3 sheets to the wind smoking straight sin and drinking diesel and gasoline like a dam phene I make that scene I know it will be a long while before I get clean. for now to not lose my broken soul to the man in the pit the man in the firey hole where earthly sins take there toll, to get through this loss is the goal
©mr.russer
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