It's not always glitz and glamour
We too are growing & going through the motions
So many emotions raid our minds
It gets complex to sleep at night
Sometimes we find ourselves weeping until our head starts spinning and eyes are puffy while our man and children rest their eyes
When you have a mini you running around and another on the way you cannot help but think of giving them the life you wasn't granted
See so many people think that you have it all together cause they see that smile up on your face
When you're dating interracial and you have so many loved ones who are racist , money hungry , narcissistic , and manipulators you have to love them at a distance
When you don't have your parents you gotta figure out so much about being the best parent while so many you thought cared & loved you just wanna spew their insecurities , doubts , & fears upon you
Mama was always there whenever her mental illness wasn't getting the best of her
She did the best she could with 6 children
It was hard watching her suffer
No , I am not judging , but too often we faced embarrassing moments
It was hard opening up to friends cause damn there goes another person putting everything on the back burner
It's hard when you gotta watch your loved one suffer , & all you can do is stand by them , lift them up with words of encouragement , & make sure they have all of their necessities
It's hard having a parent who is so loving , caring , charismatic , resilient , hardworking not get to live their dreams all cause a chemical imbalance
You wanna help them break free . . . free from those demons
You wanna give them the best life possible
Man , One day that day will come when I am a published author , artist , podcaster , fashion designer , & chef
Buenos dias senoritas / Buenos noches senoritas y senoritos
©quiara
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