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perfection

I live my life on the grid 
Smiling days sober nights
I Heard your words like a burning spear 
Cutting thru like a sharp sword 
You want to change me, seriously?
You want perfection, but you're nothing to write home about 
You said I'm stupid and naive 
Immature and childish 
You wanna change me to be like you 
See the world through your own eyes 
Feel the things that you felt 
Walk the miles like you and crush my toes on the tar 
I asked for help you labeled  me weak
You keep down thinking you're helping
Nah! you're one of them 
I got emotions too 
Battling demons my own mind can comprehend 
Shedding tears for a lost cause 
You never asked 
You want perfection,I'm imperfect in my own ways 
But you keep fluttering covering your tracks 
Blaming everyone around for things you lost 
Teetering on the edge of shadows I found love 
On things I wish to forget 
On pasts my mind can't control 
I wish to talk sometimes
But you never listen 
You black me out 
So I have to keep it myself 
And chain this wall behind my soul
For many hearts have bridge the walls a thousand time 
It keep falling but can't back down 
You can change the world but you can't change yourself 
For if changing the world is easy 
I guess grass will be greener 
©anunobi johnson kosi
©blackmask