Please

If I have to beg you to be in your world,
Then a whole new hell in my heart has unfurled.
If I have to drive to numb all of the pain,
At that point it is painful just hearing your name.
I have giving you everything that I have to give,
And my reward is now purgatory, no way to live.
I look for the path that I need to take,
Hoping destruction won't stand in my wake.
So if I'm destined to do this to face this all alone,
The I will have to move forward, more into unknown.
He says I have broken him, I've broken me too,
At this point I've surrendered, not more I can do.
I would pluck down the moon if only to see,
The smile so sweet, that he'd given to me.
I'm shattered I'm beaten, I'm broken, I'm bruised,
I sit here in limbo, I sit here confused.
If only I'd found the way to change who I am,
Maybe its would've changed, I wish that it would, I wish it but, damn.
My brain it won't stop, its replaying each pain,
It plays in a loop, till its more than a stain.
I sit here, in peril, I sit here, in tears,
Reliving replaying all my worst fears.
Goddess help me to bounce back from this quick.
Because if I lose him, I will always be sick.
©kaydacie