It all feels so pointless, right? Look up kid, The sun still shines bright! Don’t close your eyes, and envision all of your bad decisions, then start wishin that you weren’t existent. You’re so resistant, so stubborn, won’t listen to anyone but yourself, no one else.. You just had to get by, so you had it in your head, that you had to get high, and I just watched it all happen, now I’m sitting here askin myself why. Running from the lights, side by side, but those moments died… I tried to help you, I tried. But, Everytime you told me that you were telling the truth, I could tell that you were telling a lie. I could see you building a wall to hide behind, but it’s fine, cause I still hide behind mine. I wish I could rewind, or go back in time, take it all back, maybe take a different path.. Tryin to grasp even a fraction of the past, but sadly, I’ve never been good at math. So, this is where it’s at? Looking back, I shoulda asked while we were both ditchin class, but it all happened so fast I couldn’t catch it. The memories disappeared like magic, and I’m not bein dramatic, man, I’m just not ecstatic that we’ve both become addicts.. I try to be empathetic, but it’s hard to understand. I’m sicka this world too, staring at myself in the mirror with balloons tied to both of my hands.. We do it cause we can, damn. You’re sick of who you are? I’m sick of who I am! I know, it all feels so strange because everyone changed, but it’s okay, tomorrow’s another day, don’t run away, stay home, and enjoy it. Embrace that pain… Fly away on paper planes.. You’re never satisfied? Let me speak my mind.. I ask what you’re thinking, but that’s classified. I’m not qualified to decide who should live, or die, I break down, but we both know that I can’t cry. I can hear the deceit in your voice when you speak, and trust me… I’ve been thinking about this shit for weeks
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