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Soo sad, the smile bears more pain than the frown.
The laughter carries more sadness than the cry.
The silence holds more complains than the blabbing.
The mourning's done in white, it's no longer in black.
It's better to fake it, coz y'all keep on judging.
The smile's getting lost as the days are going.
Getting dirty and unholy and death's approaching.
Restless and tired coz we keep on running.
Yes running, chasing for p***y and money.
I gotta break these rules, I refuse, you can't confine me.
It's alarming how fast i'been losing interest.
Going through random phases of depression.
Managing keepin' a smile, while am drowning in the ocean.
Locking myself in the dark, in a deep sad song session.
Well, think am antisocial, down and rollin fast, you can't save me.
I'been tryin' faking a smile, but I swear it's ain't easy with this empty feeling.
Feeling unfulfilled when am in the dark, damn!! why the fuck then do I hate company.
Maybe ain't human, maybe I ceased living and am just fucking existing.
Take a look at me, shattered, I don't even know how am feeling.
I hate all this shit, I hate this bitter side of me.
©Jay Crown