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What's worse
pushing for what's good
or failing
fast to work
But.. what's done ??
stressing and pushing
but, for where ??
it's not fair
too many mistakes
how can I trust him
if can't even trust myself
I'm so reckless
it's everywhere
might not be physical
It's the emotional,
the psychological
it's my brain,
Not like others.
It's been drenched in so many stains,
Not sure if it still works
But, that thing of trust
It's not real, not here anyway
looking down from this roof top
feels like I want more...
it's hard to explain.
©monologue