I catch myself
replaying our conversations
trying to pinpoint the moment
everything changed.
Hunting for any sign
pleading to change our predetermined ending.
Willing to give everything
to change the course we travel.
knowing it's impossible
to change the way you look at me.
Begging, down on my knees.
Longing for you to,
fulfill the promises made decades ago.
Sensibility knows different.
Time and time again,
you prove my nightmare a reality.
Once again I must rely on myself.
Vanquishing this crazy shit!
©jklassen
J