No direction
I Didn't know where
I wanted to go
After school
Graduation
Life right there
Standing in front of me
Each day
Added by years
Times decades
It's where
I'm at presently
Zipped tied
No love
Hugs from none
Friends I have
From Few
Down to one
My life zinged by
Tagged
Hashed
By depression
Emotional stress
Thoughts of doubt
The mental space
Sinful thoughts
Mistakes made
It's Compression
Compounded yearly
A cost
I couldn't afford
Help from psychology
Because I have issues
With today's
Evolution archeology
Proof of a hatched man
Who played a fool
With egg on my face
Because
I always lived life
Future full of doubt
No direction to go
Now I know
Crazy as it seems
Which made me
Act like a monkey
Unintelligently
I don't understand
The deoxyribonucleic acid
DNA for short
Typical
Type of scientific
Wrong schooled
Socialist
Biology
I have to understand
My faith in God
Is what
I hold onto dear
So I'll make it clear
I don't believe man
Or what they may say
Mostly because
Total control of the enemy
Souls he seeks
To kill
Steal and destroy
A forgotten force
Diligently
Laughs the devil
Deceptions for man
Twisted truth from
God's holy
Gospel theory
Theology
So I sat down
With my painful thoughts
Sat through
Much more then I ought
I know
I could have been more in life
But sorrowfully
I lived in terrible strife
I had no one to guide me
Show me the way
Walked those thin lines
Of what I could
Or could not see
A blind soul's decision
Of wanting to be free
I felt like
I was programmed
To know what I know
What has happened to me
Everything
just fits to easy
Thoughts in my mind
They stay
More often than not
Sometimes
They just
Come and go
Whenever they please
So I hold onto
Whatever I knew
Sometimes bitter
Of what
Of why
By when
And by who
Excuse me
if I am
Not what you expected
Sometimes in life
I get rejected
All along
I've been searching
Hoping and praying
But it all seems
So hopeless
No one really cares
In my memory
I'm peeling back the years
But I'm filled with
Kept the most fear
Fear of what
I may find
And why life
Towards me
Is so unkind
Afraid the truth
Will have me bound
And my soul
Will never be
Set free
I am still
Searching for me
Amidst the things
I have found
I'm so close now
I can feel it
Can't you
As I always feel
To hell with everyone
I'm compelled to quit
Written by
Freewriter
Terrylin53
And
Lenni-x
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