Questions
Will it hurt? The question rings clear in my head. Will it hurt? Not just me but everyone, will it hurt my mom, my dad, my sister, my brother, my friends? Will it hurt them? Will they be grief stricken? Why am I here if not for them? For the people who love and like me. Will I regret it? Will I miss the people I left behind as I continue my journey? What will happen to my family with a hole in it. How will my mom react? Will she blame herself for missing signs that I tried not to show her? How will my dad react? Will he also blame himself? How will my siblings react? Will they ever recover from losing a third of their trio? Will my friends remember me in 5 years, or will I just be a kid they knew in 8th grade? How will my family react, all of it, my biological family, my chosen family, all of it. Will it be like an earthquake shaking the very foundations, or will it be a fast shudder that leaves small but not permanent damage? Life will go on, but will they fill the hole I leave ? Will it be like a silent pain always felt but numbed with time?
Will it hurt? The question rings clear in my head. Will it hurt? Not just me but everyone, will it hurt my mom, my dad, my sister, my brother, my friends? Will it hurt them? Will they be grief stricken? Why am I here if not for them? For the people who love and like me. Will I regret it? Will I miss the people I left behind as I continue my journey? What will happen to my family with a hole in it. How will my mom react? Will she blame herself for missing signs that I tried not to show her? How will my dad react? Will he also blame himself? How will my siblings react? Will they ever recover from losing a third of their trio? Will my friends remember me in 5 years, or will I just be a kid they knew in 8th grade? How will my family react, all of it, my biological family, my chosen family, all of it. Will it be like an earthquake shaking the very foundations, or will it be a fast shudder that leaves small but not permanent damage? Life will go on, but will they fill the hole I leave ? Will it be like a silent pain always felt but numbed with time?
D