All alone I stood in the shadows
I wonder why my life can't just fade
like the passing shadows
I stood in silence
With tears covering my eyes
The scars he leaves
are buried inside my head,
Like I am already dead
Every night i hope he forgets I exist
Then I heard the door clang shut
I hear in silence his voice as I weep
Every night I clean and clean
By and by he tutures me more and more
Are you my father? I asked
As he comes to my room
Like the passing of the unseen wind and spirit
He played deaf ears to my innocence.
I wish I could just die
Living Is horrible but death is peaceful
Tearing me apart piece by piece
Hatred and disgust becomes my companion
And I wonder in anguish on the lust you call fun
But no sooner will this torture ever end
He had made a lust of his soul
I am the victim of his pleasure
And I am only 5 years old
Sometimes I wish I had a gun
To pull the trigger in his head
For the hurt he yields can never unwind
I wish I was normal like other kids are
I wish he had never done bad, Dad .
I wish I could heal from the scratch
But Wishes never come true
Tonight I shall pilot my flight home
Taking with me a basket full of dreams
Hope it seems to bring, but futile
Is all I could think.
Far from this crumbs called home
I shall fly to the hole I can be alone...
Can I ever run from you! Father?
You live in my head and my body
In my womb you are ready to tear
And I'm always here
Full of tears.....
Ā© Tanmoy
Ā©lostlove00
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