I need to recover before i'm lost forever
January to December all year only pain i remember
Traumatized, needing those memories to go to sleep
Fantasized, I'm the key to locking up the banshee
But i was abused and I'm the one locked up
Are you amused and are you done acting tough
Dad got mad and laid his hands on his own young man
Don't understand my rant that made my whole world bent
Trying to better myself
Founding ways to help
It's hard how life was dealt
I can't stand myself
I keep everything heartfelt
It's killing me
Everyday it's happening
Continuously beating your child and you just deny
Furiously wanting to know why
Was it easy to let loose on me
Seriously did you even want me
Sadly you'll never justify and continue to lie
Put everything on the side and let's verify
Do you have feelings or are you empty
Cause no one in there right mind have there fists ready
It's already hard to have my head steady
It's making me insane
My thoughts cannot be obtain
I would lay down my fate to put you in the ground pissing on your grave
I got locked up in chains
Now those chains will be connected to your face
Cheek to cheek let's put a smile on that face
Get a switchblade press it into your ribcage
What's my name
How can you blame me if you never once called it, strange
Open up your ribs and pour gasoline inside
Lite it up in flames for you are in my head
I welcome you to my domain
It's way better than the staircase
Harry potters in case you didn't know where it takes
Nah, he locked me up in the basement
The place i lost all my sane
One day my dad was asleep on the couch
I'm tired closing my mouth
So knife in hand and here i stand
Knife close to his throat veins
In my head, finally I'll never get beaten ever again
But i couldn't pull through
Scared it wouldn't go through
Scared, telling myself it's me or him
I'm already weak and death i can see him peak through my window
Starved and thin, got to make decision soon
Before I'm six feet below
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