You often wonder if things will get better,
if the oh so parasitic scourge of sorrow will stop possessing your body, paralyzing your spirit
but like a shadow, it follows you and even on the brightest of days, its still there, waiting to unfold
It feels good to smile and laugh during times you get to enjoy the contribution of happiness, on days you may be shown mercy
but in the end, it always comes back to take it away, because it punishes
You may feel hopeless, and always on edge because there's never a way to be content
but the truth is you let the monster inside you, trapping it there a long time ago and you are the only one that can release it
Your heart hurts and reminds you to not forget its holes, and all you've ever done was neglect it, trying to forget every pain that's ever been inflicted on you because you just couldn't take it anymore
The sooner you learn to take it all in, feel it, and let go of every piece of shame, guilt, and misery you have, you stop feeding the monster and it's toxicity weakens, losing power over what you demand be returned to you
slowly and gradually, you see your inner beauty emerging, and when you smile, you notice
One step at a time you will get there; everything heals but you have to let yourself feel even when it gets too intense
©rebecca24
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