Tested faith one last time. Guess it's not in my cards to die. Rushing rulet is the game I played. Usually 2 players but alone I played.playing alone of course changes the rules bc backing out is only you. So I took and jotted a few things down cut them out and drew one from the pile spread out on the ground.
I don't own a gun so that wasn't one. How fast my car can go in curve sounded like fun. Taking the gas and covering me lighting a match and see if anyone could save me. Taking every pill I had stuck in a drawer or laying around. Drink till I can drink no more finally pass out in the floor, if someone sees me too call 911 I only hope it was enough to at least complete I set out to be finished and done last but not least as u can see, once again I failed can't do even one thing right can't even end my own life, like i said b4 I'm alive for a reason guess in god by now I should be a full blown believer. No matter what I do I'm still walking and breathing.
B