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Rusted Metal

I am an undone drawing, 
your lines are jagged enough they 
leave an immortal scar.
I am a flower petal blanketed by decay, 
only wisterias bloom in the 
darkest nights of wilt, 
the oxygen of sorrow 
only kept drowning me,
 not helping me to breathe. 
Perhaps, it is true my frostbite 
still aches after the past winter 
lymph of distilled motion
 on every freckled 
snowflakes of treachery.
A cosmic flesh that always 
burns is a clumsy cupid 
that needs no helmet, 
love is twitching on 
each steps that 
we took, carrying two 
cups filled 
with earthquakes 
and you saw 
how the mountains 
leave their body
 and kneel to you, 
every air particles lost 
in translation after a 
tilt of such corroding 
aplomb that made 
'goodbyes' a phantom  
sensation even if its in the 
past that i already sold 
my ethereal fingers 
to a cross that made death 
a plague with no cure,
nail these bites 
on the edge of
 webbed corners of
remnant supernovas,
just one sin burned 
and i already found myself 
in a heaven i don't deserve, 
i was forced to say yes 
to your 'no', to which 
i draw constellations 
on your burnt metal 
neck of galactic 
filaments 
and voids.
I was built 
like a rusted metal, 
i called you oxidation 
ever since i met you. 
I tunneled in a bed 
made out of your 
sword of lies,
though i was not cut 
once with a scar of lust. 
My mother once taught me 
that you need to close 
your eyes to see, 
and that i don't 
need to be afraid 
of the darkness
 it holds, because 
it always comes 
when we've held 
the light for 
too long, 
but, i'm still here, 
sitting in a 
affray of my own 
wrong doings, 
epicaricacy opened 
a new hell for
others, kiss the 
solstice goodbye 
in this vernal equinox 
of  September's 
birth of dawn, 
where aubades are only 
meant for the unsent
howls in the early 
morning sky.
I was built like 
a rusted metal, 
 i called love
oxidation 
ever since 
i tasted
its penance 
poison clawing 
on my purging 
cassia casket.
©sarah_