I never knew how strong I was
Antil being strong was the
Only choice I had
I never knew I'd one day go through such
That was the greatest loss of my life
I prayed to God
I begged Him to protect it
But I just don't understand why
He allowed it to disappear
Why so soon
Without me having it in the first place
Just like that
I lost what I treasured the most
My strength
My will to survive
Within a blink of an eye
It was gone forever
I don't know how to get through this
I don't know how to survive
Why me ?
Why I'm I always unhappy
And once I'm happy
Something always snatches it away
Why must I cry all the time?
This suffering is too much
The pain unbearable
I don't think I can do this anymore
Mbona mimi???
Mbona iwe hivi??
Mbona hizi shida
Zimekawia kuisha??
Mateso haya mbaka lini??
Tabu hizi mwisho lini?
Masikini mie nimechoka.
Will this storm ever stop
Will my ship ever be stable
Will these Waters ever stop
Tearing my flesh apart
Can this f**c*ing pain just go away
Even if it's just once
This once
I'm feeling like I'm loosing it
Once again
It feels like
I'm drowning in the sea
See the sharks racing towards me
See them enjoying my flesh
See them celebrating my death
See them all happy
As I die sad
Just because life has refused
To be fair
Even if it's just once
I've been let down once more
Once more I'm in pain
Once more it's with no gain
Once more I'm suffering
Once more I'm done
Living
If feels like I'm burning
Thrown into the abys
In forever pain
Feels like I'm lost in the jungle
As the lions fight for my flesh
As the hyenas
Struggle for what the lions left of me
What a sad scene
Of my helpless
Lifeless body
I give up
On everything
I'm letting go
My demons have won
I'm worn out
I've lost
They proved me wrong
As I thought I won
I'm done fighting
hands up
I surrender
Just take the damn gun
Shoot me
Or
I shoot me
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
©mara_pain
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