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Sad Times

I was so lonely back then
Had no one to say mine 
   Crying everyday 
Thinking that was the only solution 
I remember all the pain
   I went through
How could I forget
That was my only 
Way out from reality 
Ya, am the girl with divorced parents 
That lonely and sad girl
 we see in movies
Who is waiting for her romeo, 
To save her from all the sadness 
I never wanted anything 
Besides a happy family 
   Blaming my self
For my parents conflicts 
To be honest I was the reason 
  Behind all this mess
As if they didn't had me
Nothing will have happened;
Then my father would have lived
       A happy life 
My mother would been the 
        Best housewife 
My dear brother wouldn't have gone 
         Through this pain
And I wouldn't have blamed myself 
Even if it's not my fault 
          But am still the cause 
How dare am I trying to be happy
After ruining so many lives
         They said time heals
But I don't think It does 
Even though it's been a long time 
    Am still living in nightmare..... 
©elzabeth